Once again, to thr family I am so sorry for your incredible loss and feel for your grief! I am glad you are fufilling Celeste’s wishes regarding I guess what she already knew and kept from me. I knew about the interment. She left me alot of hints during the last final months. I wish I could have said a proper goodbye, but I guess there really is none. I know how much she loved her family. I am so sorry I failed you all, because of how much I really did love her as well as all the cats. I loved everything about her. SHE WILL BE GREATLY MISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! P.S.- I am so srry I never got to properly apologize to you Harold and also that I never met or spoke with you Bear that much. I would easily trade places with her. GOD-BLESS YOU BAY-BAY, REST IN PEACE. I WILL COULD ONLY TO HOPE TO JOIN YOU ONEDAY. MY PHONE #’S ARE 954-925-7679 & 954-639-3178 if anyone need’s anything. I will donate in her name to all the things she loved.

Celeste as I called her “Bay-Bay” was my soul-mate and the love of my life. She was full of class and charm. She was interested in caring about other people over herself. People used to say to stop caring for wounded birds….that your the wounded bird. She had so many fine qualities, i don’ t where to begin and I debated long and hard whether to even sign this tribute knowing how her family blames me for everything. I did my very best to take care of her and keep everything going for the time. Whether or not I had the inner demons I was battling or not, wouldn’ t have made a difference in her condition. She always had food and when it was time for the cats “TUNAFISH SUNDAY”, we always had plenty for “the babies” every Sunday. When I started dating Celeste in 2005, I moved in with her within a month. We were two peas in a pod. I always loved her more than life itself and more each day. I know some might believe that, but it’s the truth. I would have done ANYTHING for her. She was one of a kind and the most beautiful woman inside and out GOD could have ever created, if there is a GOD. I can only hope and pray that Grace, Harold, Barry Bear, Pat and everyone else please forgive my behavior when I was addicted to painkillers. She NEVER, EVER TOOK ONE OR EVER WANTED TOO!!! If I would have known how advanced her medical condition was, BELIEVE ME, I WOULD HAVE done something to help her. She loved opera and musicals, loved cats especially her beloved “CHINA DOLL” aka “CHINAS.” I will miss her and think about her every day for the rest of my life. What a wonderful, fine woman and lady she was that was “ROBBED” of a long life THAT IF ANYONE DESERVED, IT WAS HER!!! She also loved the McLaughlin show and watched on Sundays how many of our serviceman died. She was strongly against our best Americans dying every week. And of course, there is Halloween. Anyone that knew her, knew it was her favorite holiday and she celebrated it all month. She also loved learning new words and the dictionary. There is so much more, but let me just say that I will always miss you, every second of every day. I love you FOREVER and I respect your families wishes. GOODBYE TO THE GREATEST, MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN TO EVERY GRACE OUR PRESCENSE AND EARTH………. WITH ALL THE LOVE TO INFINITY. JED

There are a few important things I left out. Also,I apologize for the typos earlier with something as important as this. Celeste was the sweetest, warm-hearted lady period. For the last 5 and a hald plus years we referred to each other as husband and wife, even though we weren’t technically married. We were commited and Celeste was the best wife or girlfriend a guy could ever have period. She was a student of ballet and still carried and showed off her ballet shoes and that she had the highest point in her class, etc… She was also an avid reader and would always research things such as cooking. Celeste was a goddess in the kitchen, as she would research many recipes and it always was the best cooking ever! She loved her gardening and organic products…hated factory-farming, … tortured cows & pigs, etc…, She was an excellent opera singer and speaker. I will not just miss her, but her beautiful voice, unique personality…that was very intelligent, but childlike as well. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU BAY-BAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need to seek mental help. I can’ t stop thinking of you. And , NO I have NOT been back to the house since Grace told me to leave. I couldn’ t stand to see her like that with no hope at all. The pain is not going away and I I need to get help, PROFESSIONAL HELP!!! Baby, you were nwhich I still find hard saying the finest woman that I have ever known….and I have known many. You were the finest of the finest in every aspect and I have so many regrets. Never take life for granted, because it is so precious. Knowing what I know know I would have done everything differently, and had her see medical doctors and checked on the results myself. I would have forced her to stop. I love you more the life itself and that will never change until the day I die, which just may be before my 44th birthday March 12. So goodbye cruel world and I hope to see you again someday in Heaven. GOD BLESS YOU, YOUR FAMILY, AND ALL YOUR MANY FRIENDS BAY-BAY!!! Rest In Peace, I love you so much and forever.